Rating: PG13-R (Still not sure)
Author Notes: I want to give a HUGE t hanks to my Beta ,Superbears, whose has been more helpful to me with this story then they know =]
Jon slumped back into one of the chairs rested behind the stage wall. The musical sound of his younger and girl loved brother crowded the arena as the four other New Kids took a quick breather. The only noise that could be heard was either the screams of the women in the arena or them trying to sing along with him.Grabbing the water bottle positioned along side of his chair, he tipped his head back and took a long needed gulp from it. The ice cold water cooled his burning throat and relaxed him to no end. Just as he was about to put the bottle down a hard slap hit his back and made him start to choke on the water he just attempted to swallow. A howl of laughter made him roll his eyes as he finally stopped heaving and was able to talk. He glanced behind him and saw the reason for his almost near death experience; he saw his friend Donnie standing there wiping tears from the corner of his eye.
"Man you should have seen the look on your face! It was like..."
Donnie made a quick expression with his face and holding his throat in mock choking. Jon reached behind him and attempted to hit Donnie. Donnie just moved away from the still laughing at his previous joke. A smile spread on Jon's face as he couldn't help but laugh at it as well. Though for a second, he felt though he was going to loose his life to a sip of water. After awhile Donnie finally stopped his uncontrolled laughing and grabbed a chair pulling it up next to Jon. They sat in silence for a couple minutes; Donnie had pulled out his phone and was on it twittering away. Joey and Danny were a couple feet in front of them both in a deep conversation, what about Jon wasn't sure. Seeing Donnie finally quiet and calm Jon let his head lean back again and tried to clear his mind of all things around him. His heart was already pounding against his ears and knowing they would be going back out there soon didn't help. What brought up the sudden anxiety he had no idea but he wouldn't be able to go there and perform properly if he didn't calm down. Taking in a long shaky breath he let it out slowly feeling his nerves begin to decrease and his heart rate go back to it's normal beating. A sick feeling was still inside of him though.
Donnie finished a quick update message to his board. He heard a shaky breath beside him and glancing over to his right he noticed Jon a ghostly white and looking ready to be sick. Donnie knew that look. He reached over and rubbed his back lightly muttering soothing words to his anxious friend. His pale face began to finally gain it's color back and his breathing was now steady. Donnie still rubbed his back still a worried face displayed thinking it was his fault he was this way.
"I'm sorry dude, I didn't mean to scare you and..."
"Don't worry D." Jon answered not wanting Donnie to blame himself for his anxiety.
"Ya sure?" Donnie said moving closer to inspect Jon and make sure he was okay.
Jon nodded slightly red now with embarrassment feeling like a child again. He noticed the warm tingling sensation on his back and finally realized Donnie still had his hand there. Looking up he also finally noticed how close he was. Practically breathing in his own air. His heart racing again he quickly stood up at lightening speed. Donnie glanced up at him clearly confused.
Slightly dizzy from standing up so fast he began to make his way over to the side of the stage so he could see inside the arena as his brother embraced all the warm love. His brother was everything he wanted to be. He was out there and was always happy to be center stage. He looked out into the crowd and saw how everyone reacted to him. It was simply amazing. His head bent down low no longer able to watch. He felt another presence behind and was praying it wasn't...
"You don't look okay man."
"I already told you I'm fine no need to worry. Just nerves gets to me sometimes." Jon replied still not looking back at him. He was beginning to realize how nervous he felt when ever Donnie was around him. It started off a few months back; but he had choosen to ignore it. Whatever it was he needed to stop feeling it and now. But it didn't stop it only grew. He began to feel little butterflies in his stomach where ever Donnie looked over at him. When he hugged him it always felt like his legs would lose their ability to stand. But he loved to hug him his scent was just intoxicating.
"I know but I worry about you sometimes." Donnie said looking down at him still confused as to the previous events.
"Thanks but you don't need to be. I. Am. FINE." Jon empathized the last three words to him.
Donnie was about to continue until Jordan came running back from onstage smiling from ear to ear. He stopped when he noticed the tension between his friend and his brother. Instantly his brother instinct kicked in and he stepped in front of Jon feeling a need to protect his vulnerable brother. In a way it was a role reversal for them. JOn was protective of his brother as well but Jordan was always like the big brother to him. He followed Jordan where he went and when he made a descision Jon went along with him knowing he could trust his life with his brother. But if looks could kill at the moment Donnie wouldn't even exist at the moment. Donnie sensing the brother protection bubble instantly took a couple steps back knowing excatly what Jordan was feeling, he was a brother to many others of course.
"Everything okay guys?" He asked trying to have his calm demenior remain in place.
"Yeah Jordan everything's cool. I was just checking up on Jon here..."
Jon interuppted him quick. "I'm fine!"
There was no time to argue as the lights started to dim in the arena and the guys were off making there way to stage B for Single and a little Sexify My Love. Jon thanked to the gods above that the situation was done and over with for now. Running out into the darkness he took his place just a couple feet behind Joey as he began to sing Single. The ladies were going crazy. When the lights came back on somehow the already screaming women screamed even louder. Jon simply put on his best smile and began to sing some back up next to Danny. Donnie and Joey went along the line of fans and slapped hands and gave quick hugs. While the women behind Jon and Danny had cameras out filming them and begging them to come over. Jon took a couple steps back reaching out to touch a few hands.
The previous agrument in the far back of his mind. He knew it was either over or would be in further discaussion later when him and Jordan were on the bus and on their way to the next city. Jordan would give him a glance every now and then which surely meant he would be asking questions; mostly about what went on between him and Donnie for the strange air to counter between them. That was one discaussion he was NOT looking forward too.
The heat wave of the concert had ended finally. For Jonathan it was over too soon. After their final bow and quick wave to the fans he quickly made his way off stage and ripped off all of the sound equipment and made his way towards his and Jordan's bus. Jordan on his heels until a group of women and there kids saw him and suddenly shouted over to him. Jon smiled knowing Jordan could never resist the kids. Jordan finally stirred away from Jon and made his way over to the adoring fans and their little ones. It was only a small distraction but it was all Jon needed to get back to the bus and lock himself into the medium sized bathroom; making sure to bring his laptop with him incase he was in there for awhile. Closing the toilet lid he sat down on it and put the laptop on the sink counter and opened it. Turning it on he put on his playlist and as the music came streaming out he laid his head back against the wall and stared at the ceiling. What had he gotten himself into now.
Jordan would be there in a couple minutes interrogating him through the door. Then Donnie would probably look for him too and want to talk to him to see if he was OKAY. He loved the guys a lot but sometimes they never know when to take hint that he wants to be alone.
Standing up he began to unbutton his shirt; if he was going to stay in the bathroom for awhile he might as well take a much needed shower. He stripped off his pants and boxers and turned the water on to a cool tempature before stepping in. Just as he was beginning to enjoy it he heard a pounding at the bathroom door.
"Jon I know you're going to be in there for awhile. But we also have a long bus ride to the next stop." Jordan yelled. "You're going to get hungry sooner or later."
Jon merely rolled his eyes and went back to his shower not wanting too have to deal with his brother at the moment. Besides why was everyone on his back like something was wrong. Donnie seemed to think something was bothering him; and Jordan wanted to know why he gave Donnie the cold shoulder. He huffed he had no idea what to tell either of them when they finally did confront them. Grabbing the shampoo he started to lather it in his hair; he could hear Jordan finally giving up and walking away from the door. He smiled at his small victory.
Jordan walked away from the bathroom door knowing it was useless to try and talk to his brother. He opened the bus door and walked off of it looking everywhere for Donnie. If Jon was going to ignore him he might as well go talk to Donnie. He saw him a couple feet away waving at the fans who were being ushered out. They were nearly screaming there brains out and some trying to quick pictures and videos. A couple had tried to go over to the fence that blocked them from the busses; but the security gauds were extra cautious tonight. Jordan had made up his mind though. Walking up to him he tapped him on the shoulder to get his attention.
"Yo Jordan whats up?" Donnie said smiling turning towards his band mate.
"What happened between Jon and you before I came back. He didn't look well." Jordan asked straight forward. "You didn't have anything to do with it did you? I know how you can be sometimes"
"Nothing happened. I saw he didn't look to well either and I asked him about it but he just kept saying he was okay." Donnie responded. "I know I get carried away sometimes but I didn't do it this time...I don't think I did anyways."
Jordan nodded and glanced around trying to think. "How about you go on the bus tonight for me and try to talk to him. You're a really pushy person try to get it out of him. Maybe you can crack him."
"All right sure man anything for my favorite Knight Brothers. I was going to stop at the Waffle House but they told me it would get in the way of traveling. So I really have nothing else to do." Donnie said crossing his arms and glancing towards the Knight's bus.
"Thanks Donnie. He's locked himself in the bathroom by the way." Jordan said before turning and heading over to the Baby Daddy bus. "See ya in the morning.
"See ya." Donnie began to walk towards the Knight's bus, mission in hand.
Upon getting on the bus he noticed how quiet it really was at the moment. The bus driver was looking through the gages to make sure everything was good to go. I guess if he wanted to go anywhere for relaxation he could come onto this bus. Though he was sure that if it were Jordan and Jonathan at the moment it would be rowdy. The brothers were always comfortable with each other and knew how to get really riled up.
He walked back and opened the door to another section of the bus and shut it behind him. Looking towards were the bathroom would be he noticed the door shut and remembered Jordan saying it was locked. Reaching into his pants pocket he found a bobbing pin he had attached to his keys; just in case he needed in problems like this. Walking over to the door he bent down and looked at the lock. Inserting the pin he searched around for the latch. Biting the bottom of his in concentration he wiggled the pin around a couple more times with it turning out unsuccessful. Finally after a couple more trys he finally heard the small click; hoping he hadn't also broken the small door knob. Standing up with a smile he grabbed it and opened it. Only to have his whole world suddenly stop in time. He had picked the worst time to pick open a lock and open a door. He couldn't speak he was too shocked and could only stare.
After washing out the condionteer from his air and quickly washing up his body he decided it was time to get out. As soothing as the shower was he was beginning to get wrinkles and they weren't just the natural ones either. Turning off the water he squeezed out what water he could get out of his hair. Opening the shower door he reached for a towel. He then noticed the small noise coming form outside the door. Eyebrows lifted in question he listened a little more carefully and then realized someone was picking the lock. Quickly reaching his hand forward he grabbed the towel that was placed on the counter and unfolded it ready to wrap it around his slim waist only to hear the knob twist and open. He froze expecting to see his brother there or even a very dedicated fan; who had some how got past security. Instead he was meant by the other people he had been trying to avoid.
"Donnie." Jon asked shocked and slightly hazed.